Self-Sabotage

from Out With Lanterns

I have tried to disown you,
offered you to birds, wind,
therapists, anyone kind enough
to listen. I have said, “OK,
that’s enough.” I’ve said, 
“I’ll stop. I promise.” 
Why would a person be bent
upon her own destruction? 
There’s an answer here, 
but I only hear weeping. 
Good news is, I am tired.
I no longer aim to disown.
Instead, I say, “Love, take 
this hammer. What else 
do you need to destroy?”

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